it might just all be a facade

Saturday, March 08, 2008;

♥ 3/08/2008 06:55:00 AM

You know I'd fight for you
But how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now
I want the best of you i don't care if that's not fair>>

This week had been a truly mad one.
We had a total of four tests during the course of this week, mon was GP, wed was HISTORY, thurs was BIOLOGY while fri was CHEMISTRY. &i think bio &chem drained each &every one of us out.
So all in all, i'm just so glad that this killer week has come to an end.
&i'm just so grateful for having girls like my girlfriends, &the irritating, yet pretty nice 5guys in my class. They really make my day! (:
&they made a heaven out of the hell we're going thru everyday.
&i'm pretty upset over the fact that i can't join the others for the ltc 04/08 camp. :\

My A level results for chinese wasn't my ideal one, &wasn't the one i expected. I got a stink, old B. ):
I saw the result slip, &for a moment i didn't know how to react. I just felt as though i let my parents down, i let my chinese teacherS down, &i let myself down.
I felt so so SO disappointed, to the extent i wish the ground would just sallow me down. :\
It may mean nothing to you, but it meant the world to me.
Yet no matter what i say or express, i've got a strong feeling that nobody understands.
Even though i've friends being nice, to comfort &accompany me. But somehow, i still felt really upset inside. ):
Oh well, i maybe feeling better, much better now.
But i know it's still gonna hurt, everytime i remind myself of that.
I left FMSS without scoring a decent L1R5 to get into the college i wanted. Although right now, i'm not against jj anymore. I think it's my class which actually made me have a sense of belonging to the college.
Rare that i'm saying positive bout my school. But really, i'd have miss out a great bunch of classmates &girlfriends if i weren't in this class/school. (:
&i ended my chinese education, without being able to score an A grade for the paper.
I made a mental note to self, telling myself not to let history repeat itself, when it's time for the big As.

Like what everyone around is saying.
Time to move on. Get over it, &look ahead.

On a lighter note, it's the closure of term 1, &the beginning of holidays!
Plans to go out with the girlfriends tmr are cancelled. Quite disappointed actually, but it's okay! We still have thurs. (:
Oh yes, class dinner with pae s25 on tues &dinner with jae s07 on thurs.
Plus, date with my bestie!
&a not confirmed suntaning session with sarah.
Heh. Not forgetting the stack of notes &assignments waiting for me. (:
Time to get busy!

Labels: A lvl chi results, march holidays, TGIF(exclamation mark)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.